When I was younger I used to play a lot of different team sports like soccer and handball but after I moved I had to stop because I lived to far away and I was in my senior year of high school so there wasn’t much time to go and train and have match day.
I didn’t play a sport up until I was 18, I was too busy with school and I didn’t feel the love for playing sport at that time. But since I was someone who would gain weight easily I was growing and growing, up until the point that other people start to notice and when they would start to tell me that I should eat healthy and be more active.
I knew I was eating unhealthy and I knew that I was struggling to find the motivation to lose weight because I was so stressed, my heart was having problems and when it became to the point when I wanted to go, no one was willing to go with me or to support me. And that’s where the I lost my motivation to go to the gym, at that time I had gained quite a lot of wasn’t feeling comfortable with my own body and because of that I didn’t want the skinny people in the gym seeing me work out because I was so ashamed of my body, I had the feeling that they would look at me and laugh at me for being so big.
I think up until this day I only went 4 times to the gym and now I finally realise that it’s all for my own sake to go. Everyone is there for a different reason and maybe some of them had the same goal as me, lose weight. So from now on I will train the first couple of weeks with a personal trainer and later I’ll go on my own and hopefully I’ll be over that fear of going.
So keep in my mind that everyone is there for a different reason and that they probably don’t even notice you!